I have always been a writer. I had a rather emotional childhood. I was and still am extremely sensitive. Did not take much for me to cry. Which was a great target for bullies. Practically anything anyone said to me would send me to tears. You know what happens when you are young and your brain is developing and classmates would send your brain nasty messages...it stays. You remember the bad stuff and no matter how kind people are, they apologize, you read self-help books, you see a therapist, etc. I have never gotten over those messages. So, in my childhood, I would read, sing songs, and write. When I got into high school I wrote stories for my friends. I wrote poetry and letters. I would journal in big books and now regret it and have destroyed that shit. My kids don't need to read my misery. They know I was very unhappy and some of that remains.
Sure, I would love to be a writer, but I really need to engage in journalism classes. A few months ago an author, journalist, and editor of a rather famous newspaper asked me to write an essay (actually I never knew what exactly he wanted) on food waste in South Korea. I was stunned because I just thought he was super cool and followed him on Instagram and he followed me back. I wrote a fairly short essay about my experience in South Korea and what they are doing to fight food waste. I researched online and read articles about it in the New York Times, etc. I looked at data etc. I thought the article could have been huge but again wasn't sure exactly what he wanted. So, I decided to keep it short and sweet. He told me he loved it and was not sure if it went into the garbage or put in a file under "ideas for future articles". Which was fine because the fact he asked me to write and send him something went straight to my self-esteem.
I am not a journalist or a professional writer. I have no business being in a newspaper in London, UK but the thought that so many people work and work and get rejected I was completely fine with "Love this". Maybe there will be more opportunities. I wish that in his very busy life, he would have time to assign me topics and I would write and he would say "Gretchie this is what needs improvement". What would I write about? Oh probably art, it's sorta of circulating in my brain. Actually, for a while now it has circulating .it's a sign. One of the reasons I was teased in addition to being super sensitive It's a thing click here... was also having ADHD which makes me a better target for bullying. Teachers couldn't figure out why I would float off into space and would not pay attention to what was happening in the classroom. So, there I was getting terrible grades thinking that I was an idiot when actually I wasn't. I am drawn to art and it has stayed there for a very long long time.
This blog is a journal about me and art. Also, any adventures along the way that I think are cool and will share. It's not going to be about Korean Dramas, my family, my friends. etc. It's not me bragging about materialistic things. Just things that excite me and make me happy. You can read and laugh or not.
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